Nowadays my mood always swings~ feel very excited for this moment but sudden become extremely down for the next moment…..and I realized that I have changed so much~ compare to the vivien earlier…but I’m not very sure that the changes are good or not…but I changed~ actually I don’t like the changes of myself…not at all. feel strange….but I can’t really mention the change accurately~ whether it’s mentally or physically~ or maybe is my hormones??!kaka…..possible too….
Maybe I’m too free for so long ……almost half year gone….never touch the books, either text books, novels, journals, newspapers or whatever reading materials, for such a long period…..i think i’m becoming lazy already….mauhahahaha…and I find out it’s very hard for me now to 收拾心情, back to the student identity….but somehow have to get a way, forcing myself to do so~ haiz….
Still waiting the formal letter from the authority~ jpa…..so for this moment my future is almost equal to ------------∞∞∞……undefined…..maybe my mood swung because of this, I think……my aim,my目标become blur now ….very blur…..last time, I had listed out my plan….for my future: study in tarc, taking diploma for 2 years, then another 2 and a half years for advanced diploma……and during this 2 and a half years I will take internal and external paper as well….then when I graduate I’m already a charted accountant holding acca qualification most probably….
But the jpa results has changed everything~ my plans are all gone….i don’t know where I will further my studies…..don’t know what course I’m taking…..either cpa or acca or only degree…..i’m not used to it….most important 1…I’m alone now….
And just now I called the tarc people….confirming bout the withdrawal from the course I’m taking and also the hostel…..then I need to write 2 formal letter~ …sob….T.T….but luckily all the fees I had paid to tarc can be refunded~$$$~ so worth lar writing the formal letter…..but I’m seeking for help…..who can teach me how to write the letter?huh?....haha….. ^^
Blogged @ 3:58 PM
Don't let me go -