我从来就不是个坚强的人，
但我不得不坚强，
所以我学会了让自己坚强起来…

对自己说： 我必须坚强！
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oh god....spot check around the pc desk, making sure the place is totally safe, then pluck up my courage to sit in front of my pc...lol....very funny isn't it? i do think so too....

'sot de... must check some more before using pc...siao mia..did she do sterilization?' you must have thought in this way if you don't know what's happening in my house yesterday....



A COCKROACH!!!!!damnit lar...all my funny acts because of the stupid cockroach....

seriously, i never seen such big mia cockroach before...bout 4 to 5 inch..omg!!! imagine how big, how awful is it...and this is the 1st time i saw cockroach in my own house!!!!!i'm not bluffing...i'm serious now...

it was on the ceiling, right above my pc, when my little sis discover the awful thing...what was happening next is almost understood....so....please fully use your imagination, thankiu..
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那些女孩教我的事~品冠

要不是你让想念状况打破天窗
我不会发现枕头上的荒凉
以为你就是故乡
却变成我的流浪
谁的傍晚 是谁的天亮
十九八七六十六亿人同时狂欢
五四三二一个人倒数孤单
回忆的拥挤广场
假装你还在身旁
就像你最爱依赖我的肩膀

第一行诗的狂妄
第一首歌的难忘
第一次吻你的唇 你的倔强
第一颗流星灿烂
第一个天真愿望
第一个诺言 美丽的荒唐

你教我爱的善良
你教我恨的野蛮
你教我忘记该忘 伤心太伤
那些你教我的事
让思念更苦更长
只想问 想念的 想念的 想念的你怎么样

爱情是信仰或只能是旅途风光
那女孩带我漫游一次天堂
你教我怎么爱上
却没教怎么遗忘
让我的阳光都变成了泪光

第一行诗的狂妄
第一首歌的难忘
第一次吻你的唇 你的倔强
第一颗流星灿烂
第一个天真愿望
第一个诺言 美丽的荒唐

你教我爱的善良
你教我恨的野蛮
你教我忘记该忘 伤心太伤
那些你教我的事
让思念更苦更长
只想问 想念的 想念的 想念的你怎么样

第一行诗的狂妄
第一首歌的难忘
第一次吻你的唇 你的倔强
第一颗流星灿烂
第一个天真愿望
第一个诺言 美丽的荒唐

你教我爱的善良
你教我恨的野蛮
你教我忘记该忘 伤心太伤
那些你教我的事
让思念更苦更长
只想问 想念的 想念的 想念的你怎么样

那些你教我的事
让思念更苦更长
只想问 想念的 想念的 想念的你怎么样
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feeling just like i'm back to standard 6^^when reading conan...
but the conan i'm reading now is in english and i'm reading online~

well, the only thing which will never change....i still prefer heiji than shinichi....haha....although they are both as smart and cool as well...

by the way, i won't feel bored anymore...with the appearance of conan in my life again
this is really a good news to me...a big applause to onemanga~clap clap clap

standard 6~what a naive life, UPSR nia for that time, easy job, only 5 subject [excluding the 2 essay paper], only objective question (can tikam some more, with the probability 1/4...^^) and the longest bout 100 words will do for the essay writing, damn easy man compare to SPM or STPM....wondering, why we feel hard and almost hopeless that time when we just asked to produce an essay of only 100 words huh? LOL...

and now we are 18, just left our secondary school....continuing our life journey, but with the difference destine...full of challenges
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爱和喜欢

喜歡和愛咫尺千里。

當你喜歡一個人時，你想和他在一起，因為他會帶給你快樂；
離開後，你會想念，想著想著就會笑，
然後繼續你平靜的生活，並期待著與他再一次重逢。

當你愛一個人時，你想和他在一起，那是一種牽腸掛肚的捨不得，
怕他受委屈，怕他不能好好照顧自己；
離開後，你也會想念，想著想著歎一口氣，'不知他現在過的怎樣？'
然後你繼續你平靜的生活，希望他早日回到你身邊。

你喜歡的人在你眼中是天使，無所不能，
他總會滿足你的任性的要求。

你愛的人在你眼中是孩子，傻傻的，你不期望他做出什麼'好事'來，
只一味縱容他那些讓人哭笑不得的舉動。

你會希望你喜歡的人陪著你，然而你心中想的可能是你愛的人；

你會希望陪在你愛的人身邊，
看他在你面前睡得如此安逸甜美毫不設防的樣子，
你會微笑，會覺得好幸福。

你喜歡的人傷害了你，你會生氣，
並且一定要讓他哄著騙著逗你笑你才原諒他；

你愛的人傷害了你，你只會獨自傷心，
因為你怕對他大吼大叫會嚇著他，
你憂傷地微笑著，看著他的眼睛，
一旦發現他的眼裡流露出歉意和悔恨，
你會立即心疼地摟他在懷裡，
那一刻，你也是幸福的。

你可以同時喜歡很多人，你會希望和很多人在一起，
但也許很多年後你才發現，
原來你愛的就只有那麼一個，就那麼一個，怎麼都不會變，
你以為把他忘記了，其實只是忙的沒空想起而已。

對於你喜歡的人，你關注的是他的優點；

對於你愛的人，你關注的是他的缺點，並且，
那些缺點如果無關原則的話，
它們在你眼裡是可愛的，獨一無二的。

喜歡和愛其實只有一紙之隔，任何愛都從喜歡開始，

當有天你突然發現，你喜歡的那個人在你眼中不再完美，
而他的瑕疵正如月中的桂影一般讓你更加依依不捨，
你會覺得與他光彩照人的一面相比，
你更願意看他在你面前無助的表情，
不知道是不是應該祝賀你，
總之，你的感情昇華了

仰慕不是愛，甚至不是喜歡，
當你對一個人只有仰慕之情時，你們在一起便失去了和諧。
有人說愛一個人很累，的確是，因為你想為他承擔，
可是愛與喜歡相比最大的魅力就在於，
當你和愛的人在一起時，
你的感覺就像回家了！

well, this article i copied from somewhere else~not my 创作, anyway just wanna share this with you...is meaningful^^
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erm.....today, a meaningful day for those couple....^^












so sad, i'm single.....but never mind..who said only couple can celebrate it? who fix the rule huh? got rules also, are for me to break.....lol.....sounds so 欠扁....(teng, you teach me mia~rules are for us to break...kaka)



ps: since don't know when, i became a bad girl....lol...because of this guy----teng...

pps: i luv my family, i luv my frenz, i luv my dude, i luv my laptop, i luv hiyawu, i luv kudo shinichi, i luv heiji, i luv u all guys(n gals?!), i luv bla bla bla.... and of course_i luv u





ppps: 愿天下所有有情人终成眷属，单身族也永远幸福快乐～
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haiz~my lips crack again...pain man...ok, is my own fault-----who ask me always forget to drink enough water? especially during the hot whether....lol

so, bought a lip balm~cocoa butter formula one....with vitamin e somemore...haha..plus cocoa fragrant~my favourite chocolate....erm, nice ^^ i like it...not so painful now... but still, feel very itchy~omg!!

oh god, please let my chapped lips recover faster....or else, i can't really enjoy my meals~ suffering....(T.T)
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haha....hoho.....kaka....lala.....wow!!(+________________+''')

i drove today.....on the road~yoyo!!FEEL GOOD^^
finally....can drive legally after getting my licence 'p' for almost a month~poor licence....poor me~

just bought 2 'p' stickers yesterday from econsave~cost me rm3.30......lol....
just because without these 'p' stickers, i can't drive legally on the road......although i own a 'p' licence~shit!! so i could only drive in my taman for almost 1 month.....damn.

all this happened because of my irresponsible uncle lar~haiz.....he promised me will give the stickers to me as soon as possible after he forgot in the 1st time when he passed me the licence 'p'~
but somehow he seems FORGET bout it AGAIN......

what to do.....靠自己好过点....
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yoyo~ need to say bye bye to tarc.....after i faxed the withdrawal letters to them~ i withdraw from the course already.....

and i will receive the 'surat tawaran' from the authority very soon, according to the jpa website.....yeppy!!!

everyday stay at home really very boring~ almost drives me crazy man...boring until don't know what to blog about...haiz~

hope this kinda boring life can come to the end, faster.....LOL..
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Nowadays my mood always swings~ feel very excited for this moment but sudden become extremely down for the next moment…..and I realized that I have changed so much~ compare to the vivien earlier…but I’m not very sure that the changes are good or not…but I changed~ actually I don’t like the changes of myself…not at all. feel strange….but I can’t really mention the change accurately~ whether it’s mentally or physically~ or maybe is my hormones??!kaka…..possible too….
Maybe I’m too free for so long ……almost half year gone….never touch the books, either text books, novels, journals, newspapers or whatever reading materials, for such a long period…..i think i’m becoming lazy already….mauhahahaha…and I find out it’s very hard for me now to 收拾心情, back to the student identity….but somehow have to get a way, forcing myself to do so~ haiz….
Still waiting the formal letter from the authority~ jpa…..so for this moment my future is almost equal to ------------∞∞∞……undefined…..maybe my mood swung because of this, I think……my aim,my目标become blur now ….very blur…..last time, I had listed out my plan….for my future: study in tarc, taking diploma for 2 years, then another 2 and a half years for advanced diploma……and during this 2 and a half years I will take internal and external paper as well….then when I graduate I’m already a charted accountant holding acca qualification most probably….
But the jpa results has changed everything~ my plans are all gone….i don’t know where I will further my studies…..don’t know what course I’m taking…..either cpa or acca or only degree…..i’m not used to it….most important 1…I’m alone now….
And just now I called the tarc people….confirming bout the withdrawal from the course I’m taking and also the hostel…..then I need to write 2 formal letter~ …sob….T.T….but luckily all the fees I had paid to tarc can be refunded~$$$~ so worth lar writing the formal letter…..but I’m seeking for help…..who can teach me how to write the letter?huh?....haha….. ^^
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In the previous post, i had mention bout the form 6 and matriculation are none of my business….
I wanna say sorry bout that, cause I just realized that i’m a bit over when saying that…..
Sorry to those who are concerned…if I had made you annoyed~ and wanna say thanks to the person who reminded me bout this…..thankiu…
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nyahahahaha.........i had cut my hair~look fresh now......hoho^^
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today is the 1st day of form 6 and matriculation batch 2009~haha.....but is non of my business.....muahahahaha...
while my friends are busy attending the orientation program in their new school, i still be with my sweet dreams~kaka....^^
but almost all of them being not good students.....they are not bad actually, just a little bit not good nia~~because i still can sms with them when they are in school....lol..=_____________=''''
haha....whatever~

today, too, 1st day of the mid-year exam for form 5 students, not me....i'm no longer secondary school student.....old already..kaka..seein my sis so stressful...just because she not yet finish studying all her subjects..then my mind flash back~last year about the same period, the exams will starts from tomorrow on wards but i still study in progress~not finished even 1 subject, especially sejarah and bio~although having lots of tips but they really help nothing....i swear: non of the questions is from the tips~lol...i almost gave up that time, feeling too stress and tension~ but everything is over now....
i will meet much more challenges in my future~and will be more stressful compare to this..haiz~
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i am still single but no longer available~
at least for now....i wanna be single....^^
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fuh.....finally, my blogskin have a new look~(n.n)

specially thanks to hein's and my sis's advices..

haha....from now on, i wanna use proper english in posting my blog~
because this is the only way i can brush up my english....kaka
although it's quite difficult for me at the begining...
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3rd~yesterday......de jpa result was comin out at 5 pm.....bt dat time im at ske...so cnt check immediately lor....bt actually i suppose i won gt it 1....coz i feel i had done de interview vr badly...

so,i din put any hope dat i wil gt it...n i was about to study in tarc ...



btw,when i reach home bout 12,i still check de result.....n de miracle had happened.....

i really cnt believe it in de beginin......de screen....

it stated~











u noe wat....when i saw de berjaya,i stuck in front of my pc~for bout 15sec...

n my nx reaction is~OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thkin~isit true?m i really gtin de jpa scholar?n i re-checkin de result for many times.....ok....to make sure im nt dreamin~^^



i feel im vr lucky~(isit bcoz i hv been sprinkled de 圣水for 6 times!!?haha....)

coz so far i noe im de only 1 gt de oversea jpa scholar....^^

although i din gt straight A1~

many of my frenz who deserve de scholar din gt it.....

i really duno hw de government choose de~

i cn only say im really vr LUCKY man!!!!!

n of coz i deserve it,k? kaka...^^

\(^o^)/ ~horay!!!!

i still remember de topic given to my team durin de interview~any success is based on ur own effort, do u agree?

den v started de discussion......total 5 of us....2 apply for accountancy(includin me),2 for engineerin n 1 for actuaral science...

i noe another malay gal who applied same course as me 1 din gt de scholar~although she did better den me durin de interview.....stable..btw,she gt de uia~university islam antarabangsa(some sort lar de name....she had told me bt some hw i 4gt d).....wish her gd luck n all de best in her future lar~^^

others i duno d....coz dat day 4gt to gt their contact num....so they r unknown....haha...lik AM..bt i hope they cn gt it lor....after all v all had work vr hard for de interview...

oh~back to de topic of dicussion....actually 5 of us also nt agree wif de topic~coz it nt only depends on ur effort bt also ur frenz,ur teacher,ur parents,de surroundin for u to study,ur finalcal problems.....etc....v had mention many~bt gt 1 point_ur luck....i still rmb~lik my situation nw~yea,im really vr lucky......n i hope i cn stay wif de lucky all de time~haha

and nw here comes de problem......wat should i do in order to take back de hostel fee n registration fee from de tarc?

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ok....



2nd~today is wesak day....so yesterday gt 1 annual procession at ske...n dis de 1st time i hvin de chance to walk de procession....haha..after all i had a great experience....nice..

wif my ss frenz~yee hein...

actually,i luv to chat wif her...haha....cn ss together n dis makin me feel comfortable...i noe hein wil sure fly when she see dis post....kaka....bt it's really true lar...

by de way,dis nt de main point~de main point durin de procession is......hein n me has been 'sprinkle' de 圣水 for 6 times!!!!!!haha.....vr 夸张hor?



well it so happened dat hein n i is walkin faster n faster n faster juz bcoz we wanna de 圣水 bein 'sprinkle' on us.....v r chasin after de 花车actually(okok actually is me wanna it, nt hein.....juz 拖他下水only...kaka).....lol....nvm de 圣水cn buang shui punya....so i won mind bein sprinkle so many times...haha....bt my frenz hein is kesian bit lar....coz hv to accompany me doin de ss.....bt is gd for her wat.....ble....^^



den here comes de title of dis post~走着走着，我们仿佛回到了童年....~ok,dis my qoute.....haha gt copy right reserved de..kaka

ok fine~dis 1 of my ss ....below is de story:

after bein sprinkle until our hair is wet.....den v walk even faster i thk~o slower?im nt vr sure.....ok, dun care either faster o slower..v juz wanna 远离de圣水....coz hein cnt stand it d....

kesian de yee hein......kaka...

den while v walk n walk n walk,v come to de ske kindergarten 花车....at 1st i din realise de...bt hein ask me to listen to de 童谣..de little kids dat kind of songs..den v start ss again...v start singin.......OMG......sing in de public...ok 4gt bout dis part....continue my story..v saw many childern walkin wif us....v r definitely giant for them i thk....kaka....n also on de花车...n i find out gt 1 little gal is really vr cute.....hein said she looks lik wei lynn??!!!
n suddenly de quote came into my mind~den i told hein den v ss AGAIN~
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haha....actually i wanna post my blog yesterday de....bt finally.....i had chosen my sweet pillow...kaka...coz too tired d...

08.05.2009~de day i wil alwiz rmb....everything happened in dat day,some hw r vr memorable for me...yup.....a wonderful day

1st~my last day workin in cheng co....
im nt cryin although im nt willing to leave...
i almost start to get used to de life lik dis~everyday wake up den breakfast den reach office den on my pc den start doin de account den lunch time(alwiz cn eat delicious n different food if u b wif my colleague...haha....n bcoz i eat so much den they gv me a damn frightenin nickname~little dinasour.kaka) den tea time den finish job den packin den goin bak home den bath den hvin dinner den online den is almost de time to sleep......my daily route.....ok i noe is quite borin bt im almst used to it....coz i enjoyed it ....no tension no stress at all...

bt still gt to leave some hw...haha....i wil mis u all guys de...n keep in touch ya..

haha.....dis my sit in cheng co...i noe is quite messy...haha....nt lik vivien at all bt it is consider vr clean n neat d compare to others....haha...
n dis is de soft ware im usin it every day to complete my account....
i really learnt a lot from there...
by the way,wonderin y de soft ware muz cal UBS.....dis makin me alwiz cnfuse btw UBS n USB....ok fine....lol...
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i hv made my decision finally~btw matrick n tarc....

final decision~~TARC.....

here i come......tarc...kaka..

actually quite struggle de makin de decision....
penang is really a GOOD place...ya...美食天堂~really attractive to me____a piggy who luv food so much.....kaka...
ok,back to de topic~y matrick de accounting is nt in english de?WHY??!!!
if they usin english, i definitely will choose to study there....
de school surrounding is gd......new+nice+fresh+big+clean+bla bla bla....
juz gt 1 美中不足~dats accountin is usin malay language...

do u noe hw ENGLISH is important in accountin?

dats y i choose tarc at de end....haha

或许会觉得少许的可惜，但决定了就绝不后悔~这是我的原则......呵呵

count down:~ 13 days ~left

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y im sooooo UNLUCKY de neh?

my sis cn change her blogskin in de 1st try....bt me hor...try n try n try n try....still FAIL..

Y AR?

haiz....

1 more thing....wanna say SORRY to u dude.....coz yesterday din ans ur cal n oso ur msg....

PS:im workin nw.......mmuahhahahahaha
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juz knew dat my vr best dude~SICK d.....

wats happenin to him? he say he gt HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE!!!!!!!!!!WATS? OMG.........

dude, u r only 18 rite? unbelievable!!!
cn anybody tel me wat should i do to help him?

O I SHOULD BLAME DE NS?

DAMN NS.....DAMN DAMN DAMN...
bt still......help nothing,rite?
den wat should i do?

张名扬!!!!!!振作点!!!!!
i cnt live wituot u!!!u should noe bout it!!!!!!!!!
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yesterday i was seventeen...

dis is de 18th years im being on de surface of de earth???

wat m i trin to say....haiz~vr cnfuse nw....

I NIT TO B MORE MATURED.....MORE INDEPENDENT!!!!!

coz im nt primary o secondary student anymore.....

i hv grown up...nt matter i willing ont....so i muz b MORE REPONSIBLE....

IM NT SEVENTEEN D.....IM EIGHTEEN NW....半生不熟的年龄.....haiz
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okok...today is my 1st day writin blog.....indicatin wat? i oso duno...
mayb juz to show dat im 踏入人生的另一階段罷.....
gonna leave cheng & co d...one more week from nw...wat cn i say o mayb 'wat to do' is better to describe........bt still de fact.....time really flies......6 months gone...im goin to kl vr soon....ya vr soon....wil b back to student's identity....suddenlly realise dat actually i lik de 'job' as account trainee....although it's juz a trainee..learn many things...n no stress no tension actually.......

n 1 more thing.....damn miss my dear frenz~MIN MIN....i thk v won meet each other for another 4 years ba, i thk...haiz~wat happened to me...?juz wanna tel u smthing~no matter wat's happenin~u r still my only 1 best frenz~dude.....de best dude ever...promise
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